Just Talking Out Loud


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I went with my sister in law (Melanie) to her pre-surgery meeting yesterday. My brother, Melanie's mom and step dad were there too.

Mel was diagnosed with cancer last week. She has the invasive type, but the tumor is fairly small (2.5 cm-3 cm).

It was different, sitting off her shoulder with my brother on her right throughout that appointment. I've been there so many times myself. I felt helpless. I know exactly what she's going through. I noticed her mannerisms and fidgeting when the doctor was explaining the process of her treatment, been there too.

I just wanted somehow to jump inside her soul to let her know everything is going to be OK, whatever happens, things will be OK.

Tough seeing my brother go through that too.

Anyway, just venting I guess.

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For the forum members who have not had the privilege to meet Chris (Tominator), here is another example of the type of person he is. This guy has been through it all, stood tall and beat it down. Being there for someone who is going through the same thing he has been through multiple times, lending her his strength and knowledge, I would expect nothing less out of Chris.

I know I bust your chops almost on a daily basis in here Chris, but I have nothing but respect for you my friend. Keep up the good work. :cool: Continued prayers going out from the Howard's for Mel's full recovery.

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Thanks folks, just needed to get that out I guess.

I just got back from dropping my 7 year old over there to spend the night with his cousin.

Melanie had her MRI today to help pinpoint the location and size of the tumor. She showed me her schedule of what's upcoming. She has nothing going on this coming Thursday, but every other day has something going on in the way of appointments or tests for the rest of the week. I went over them with her and let her know what she could expect. (I've had all of them). Everytime I went to leave she asked me another question. We'd get done talking and I thought she was done I'd say "well, better get out of your hair..." or something to that effect, but she kept asking me questions, or bringing up new topics of discussion.

I guess you have to know her. She's a bit of a paper tiger. She's a tough SOB any other time, talks a big game, but she's scared now. She'd never admit it, but it's showing, at least to me. After the 3rd time of trying to leave, I got the hint and hung around until they had to leave for a function with their oldest son. I was happy to stay.

I don't know why I'm telling you guys this. I'm not looking for "good job Chris" type comments. I guess, selfishly, it helps me cope with what she's going through. A bit of a catharsis for me.

I've often tried to make sense of why I have to go through what I have to go through. I don't know if I'll ever figure it out, or if I'm even supposed to, but I know that I've learned that we are here for each other, to get each other through the valleys so that we can enjoy, and better yet, recognize the peaks, together. Maybe this is why. Maybe this is why I had to go through what I've gone through, so that I can help Melanie. Sounds crazy, I know, but helps to make sense of it.

Thanks for the ear. :cool:

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