Everyone makes bad shots...BUT I hope you learn from this experience....If you are going to hunt, you owe it to the animal that if the shot isn't ideal, don't take it....and if you make a bad shot, make an attempt to recover it...Yeah I sympathize some you don't want to wander around a swamp by yourself, I might be leery as well but if you are going to hunt, time to get over that fear, deer are going to take you through some rough country, especially if it's wounded.